BTAM: Back to planning
I am, quite often, very hard on me. There are plenty reasons to believe that most of the times I was right. One of my permanent self accusations goes around the fact that my life is quite an erratic journey. As much as I don't want an office job, the feeling that the horizon remains as misty as five or ten years a ago is a bit frightening. I don't want a predictable shore, but at least I wouldn't mind having a rough idea of where I'm heading. Seems to me that somebody gave me the maps of a different location. And that's me main reason why I have been doing many things over the last decade. Unable to finish or focus completely on any of them, I feel strangely proud of the diversity. I always thought of this as a great story to tell -someday- to my grandchildren. But that inconsistency is a burden. Any person with a heart beating inside desires to live as many lives as possible. While being a restless traveler is an exciting journey, maybe to settle somewhere an